This post is going to be a little bit more personal than most because I’m going to address a topic that I’m pretty passionate about.
On Wednesday, my little friend went home after living with our family for a year. The court has ruled that he and his siblings can live with their birth family on a northern reserve (a few hours away from where we live). He just had his ninth birthday, and he’s been doing so well with us.
It’s… hard to watch a child grow and blossom where he’s at, and then see him go through another huge transition after he’s just settled into the first change.
Stephen was so excited to go home, though, so that made it easier to say goodbye. He knew he was going to miss us (and we made sure to give him pictures) but he couldn’t wait to see his family.
This feeling is hard to describe… We want him to be happy, to be with his family, to be safe and nurtured and cared for. These years of his life are so crucial for his future. The hardest of all? We aren’t in control. As much as I’d like to make the calls for his life, I just can’t. I cannot make sure he’ll be safe where he’s at. I can’t protect him from bullying. I can’t even be sure he’ll come back to live with us if he ends up back in the system.
It drives me mad when I think of all the things that could happen. When I think of all the horror stories I’ve heard.
This quote from The Help has always been meaningful to me, and it’s what my family wants to teach every child that enters our home:
It’s absolutely impossible for me to control this situation. And it kills me.
I know all I can do is pray, but sometimes it feels like praying helps nothing. It’s times like this when I need to immerse myself in Scripture. (It sounds like I’m kind of teaching you guys a lesson, but honestly, writing this is helping me to vent and heal.)
Philippians 4:6-7 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” (NKJV)
He will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. God, the author of the Universe, is in control. And that’s gotta be thousands of times better than me running this show.
This song pretty much sums it up:
Yes, fostering is hard and painful and scary… it makes you vulnerable. But I can’t stress how much it’s worth it! Your heart will heal, and their lives will be forever changed.
With each child that comes into your home, your heart grows bigger. When they leave, your heart breaks. But it heals over time. The next child to come is not a replacement for that void, but an addition to your love.
Here are some more pictures of my family:
I know this might be kind of a sad post, but I hope it blessed you in some way. ❤️ And please don’t underestimate the impact you have on people!
God has us in this world for a reason, and I know we can make a difference.